a long long long day
last monday i feel like dying. wait a minute, that's how i feel everyday now. damn it. =( been feeling the pressure cuz all the deadlines are coming up and all my frens seem to be brilliant. and me? well, i feel like i'm good at NOTHING. And I used to be the one who talks a lot, who had a semblance of an idea of what to do. Now, i'm just shooting about in the dark. Seriously, what happened to me?
i just handed up an assignment the past friday and though it wasn't my best work, i'm very proud of it. I made a screensaver where stars go around in circles and it kinda spirals sideways and it spreads out to fill the screen. =D but i'm totally burned out. and this coming isn't gonna get any better. =(( i have 3 assignments to hand in this coming friday, another next monday, and a test this thurs. ARGH. i need rest!!
watched the ugly truth last tues. quite funny. it's kinda like he's not that into you but this is quirkier, funnier and also more obscene. lol. but we all had a good laugh.
I miss my babes back home. I haven't been able to talk to them at all. And even then, would we find that we have nothing to say to each other? I feel everyone's moving forward while I feel as though I'm going nowhere... Am I going anywhere in life? I dun wanna make a mountain out of a mole hill, or over dramatise my life when other ppl's problems are bigger than mine. I really dun like myself right now. sigh...
Katy Perry - Thinking of You
Comparisons are easily done
Once u tasted perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one and I still got the seed
You said move on where do I go?
I guess second best is all I will ever know
Cuz when I'm with him i am thinking of u
Thinking of u
What would u do if u were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I was looking into your eyes
You're like an indian summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise centre
How do I get better when I've had the best
You said there's tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips I taste your mouth
He pulled me in I was disgusted with myself
Cuz when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What would you do
If you were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish I was looking into
You're the best and yes I do regret
How could I let myself let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it
I got burned
Oh, I think you should know
Cuz when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What would you do
If you were the one who was spending the night
Oh I wish I was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door and take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cuz in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay...
almost everyone i know is attached. then comes the time when they will get married which will be another 5,6 yrs down the road? which isn't far away. when i was 15, i was telling grace 'can u imagine, we're going to be 20 in 5 yrs?' and then 'bam', we're 20 now. and i'm turning 21 this yr. i feel like everything's so uncertain... sigh... why why why??
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